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Destructive Distillation

The End

25 July 2010 by Vemana

We had a great time together. But it is time for me to move on. I started this blog in May 2006. 4 years! Cant believe it. Dont know if it seems like yesterday or seems like ages ago. I had a great time and wrote many articles I love. There were many more which didnt make it out of my head. I always wanted to write much more and still do. Several blogs went and came but this stayed. But now this has to go too.

Everything I write from now on (other than about Cinema and Digital Media of course) will be on my personal domain at http://vemana.in/stream . All the posts from this site have been exported there and available under the category 'Destructive Distillation'.


[update: They wont be available there. Just here. This blog will be what it was, My first blog and will remain be back to being exclusive.
I am a new person now. I have a new blog. :) Check it out http://vemana.tumblr.com ]

Au Revoir.

Are you fine?

12 July 2010 by Vemana


A: How are you?
B: I am fine.
Him: Are you doing alright?
Her: I am fine.
X: Are you fine?
Y: I am fine.

More often than not 'I am fine' is not being fine. It is just a filler. It is a defacto response. Just like when someone says "whatsup" the other says "nothing much". There might be a lot up but I am not going to just blurt it out right away. We need to build a conversation.

Similarily, when one is asked "How am I?" I might be good or bad but I would say fine. Actually if one is actually doing fine or good or great he or she would tell it out emphatically. But a nonchalant or dull or sad, fine means anything but that. Nonchalant is disappointment, dull is for boredom and sadness is for well sadness or misery.

But well you might just be not interested and your fine might be just a filler. I am not saying I have decoded the fine but just saying 'fine' has more meaning and layers attached to it than any other associated words. Good means good, great means great, not good means not good but fine could mean anything at all.
Also no one is ever just fine for more than a brief moment. Reflect upon it and you will find that you are more often than not either doing good, feeling bad, happy or sad. Being just fine is a rarity, well atleast for me and that is just swell actually. Who wants a life where fine is good enough?

Que sera sera

28 June 2010 by Vemana

Que sera sera
Whatever will be, what will be
The Future is not ours to see.

Life goes on come what may. But it doesnt mean that we cant control it. The future is not ours to see but it us ours to mould. You just turn the direction and pattern of things while you mould, you cant control all degrees of freedom. Similarily the control I am talking about is of a mouldable nature. Life has its own way. We just have to adapt and make it our own. It throws different things at us. We get to decide what to do with those things
.
I decided to make my own path. It consisted of a simple rule. Plan but let life happen to you, dont resist it. There are two ways I move now. One as per a general outline and other open to chance. You never know when what may come up. There are far too many variables I cant control or even comprehend. So, though I am going to have a destination I am not going to be afraid of trying out a new path or even take a detour.

Life goes on come what may.  Several things have happened and are happening which are changing the way I live and impressing upon the way I think.  (I shall write about them soon) It has been a busy month and several things are happening and so many at once, it is overwhelming. I am not paying as much attention as I should to some very important things. There are so many important things and those which cant wait, it is tiring. If only I could freeze time and get things done.

I could rant on but I am not going to. It is pointless. It is about making the most of what is thrown at us and chiseling at it they way I can. I shall welcome it with arms wide open.

Need...to...write

25 June 2010 by Vemana

I was about to type in "reader" into the firefox awesome bar and go away to a sanctum of soaking in the wise words of learned people and new revelations of the seekers in the realms of social and digital media, arts and culture, gadgets and technology. But once I would take the plunge the day (or rather night) would end for me with going to sleep after the headiness and the weight of the newly obtained information.
need..to..write
But NO! I shall write today. I have been mulling over a couple of months to write various stuff and even after having decided a couple of weeks back of what to do, I hadnt taken the plunge. My laziness is not the only thing to be blamed for it. Life has been moving at a good pace and things are happening; good and bad. That is a good thing but not always a smooth one. Those stories are for other days.
 
Today I shall write. From today I shall write. I have had a serious writing classifying disorder. Just like my interests, my writing is varied and I need to write in different forms and feel that I should be doing it at different places. I wanted a blogger, tumblr, posterous etc However that dilemma ends today and the drought too. I shall write about everything (except two topics) at one place, ie here and I shall write a lot.  From what I have learned people get better by practice and by expression.

I solemnly swear to put down all ideas as and when I can and put them out as tweets and the longer ones as posts here. For professional and brand building reasons all my writing about cinema will be at Too Much Cinema and all my writing about new and digital media will be at the soon to be unveiled digitality.in. Everything else from commentary, rushes (my previous destructive distillation posts have been imported here), poetry and fiction shall be here and properly tagged and categorized. So I shall write. And I have a lot to. But now I need to go read.
 
[update: things have changed. This belonged here. My Site will not have blog posts. So this one is back here. New random blog for a new me is at Tumblr, And segregation is what works best]